How am I supposed to feel?????

Right now because of our peculiar situation, I am not earning enough money to give my family the things they need, nor am I allowed to do so.

And there are those who blame me for not providing for my family in the way that any decent man wants to be able to do.

But when a man is not able to provide for his family in even the basic things, how is that man supposed to feel?

Sometimes it is so hard to walk this path.....

Walk a while....

Decided to take a little walk today.

My second son is going on a missions trip to Vanuatu later this year, and so as part of the preparation I decided he should take a walk with me.
Only a little walk - about 12km.

He will walk much farther than that on his trip, and through bush and jungle.
We walked along paths and roadside dirt.

As we began our walk, he was saying things like "Oh yes, I understand it will be a long way" and other such things. I laughed gently to myself and thought "Yeah, his head understands it is a long walk, but I wonder what his feet will think of it in about two hours time.

I used to walk a fair bit - 5km to work and 5km back again, each day.
But it has been a while since I did much of that.
I do, however have some idea of walking with a backpack.

I will say that By about the three quarters mark we both were well and truly over the whole thing, but we were committed - some would say we should have been committed for trying it...

Anyway, we got there.
A few blisters on the feet, sore feet, aching legs, and my back, courtesy of the old injury, is not feeling 100% but we did it.

And he has a different appreciation of what he will be in for in a few months time.

We will walk some more - he needs it to prepare, and I could use the fitness.
But not this week. maybe not next week either - it might just wait until the memory has faded a little.

Sometimes I wake up grumpy

Sometimes I wake up grumpy.

Sometimes I don't wake up grumpy - but things conspire almost immediately I open my eyes to make the grump well up inside me.

And sometimes the grumpy simply grows through the day, waiting for the moment to be unleashed.

I know that I am in control of how I react to things, but sometimes it doesn't seem much like it.


Anyway, I am grumpy today - for one of the three reasons above (but I am not saying which), and hopefully by writing it down here, I can circumvent the grumpy escaping.............

Have a good day,

I'm not so far, but hopefully you can - whoever you are......

Skelli.

The occasional blogger

I feel like I am a bit of a "drive by blogger" at the moment - only occasionally get here to throw something together, and even then they don't all actually get up here.....

Lots of things going on right now that are keeping me busy and/or distracted from things like this.

And let's face it - in the big scheme of things, this doesn't rate very highly in importance.

Even when  was regularly posting here no one read it, so I am sure it having very little impact on anyone's life.

But that really wasn't the point anyway.

And of course, it is a bit circular in that - no one reads unless there is something at least vaguely interesting, and if I am posting only because people read then......

Well this particular post is yet another that has basically nothing of substance, but it is the thoughts that are running around this dumb bloke's head as I sit here.........


Have a good day,

Skelli